I have been kind of depressed lately and I can’t really figure out why things are bothering me more now than they have before. I suppose it is something that goes up and down with me. Though I was happier (I think) living in Etobicoke with roommates for Semester 2 than I was lonely and going crazy in Aurora for Semester 1, I still found myself MUCH less motivated to get things (studying, assignments, etc) done. My grades for the second semester dropped quite a bit but at least I’m still in Honours status. Now that school is done for the summer, I’m still not feeling too motivated. It’s been a few weeks and to be honest, I haven’t done very much to find a job. It doesn’t help that I’m now living rent-free in my mother’s house for the summer (thanks Mom!!), so having to pay rent isn’t too much of a motivator. However I have really started to make changes. I joined the Y (good price, just around the corner) and I’m quite determined on improving my chin ups! Also (this is the more exciting bit) last weekend I start boxing again! I’ve missed boxing dearly, and I’ve come to realize that it is my main fitness motivator. I even started running again. It’s because I want to improve in my boxing that I do go to the gym and start running to improve my cardiorespiratory endurance. I don’t think I see myself competing and I have considered sparring in the future, but for some reason, I want to do really well in boxing specifically, just for me.
Not standing on anything I swear!
Paying for all this? Good question. I have dropped off a few resumes, yes, and I attended a job fair that ended up being useless, but no one is even calling for an interview, which makes me feel even more depressed and hopeless . Not only do I need to pay for all my fitness stuff, and prepping to go back to school (with probably much less OSAP money), but this summer, this is it…
I’m gonna do it finally. This summer I’m going to Europe! I better go damnit or my head will implode, and all the shards of my skull will sink into my brain and lobotomize me, and I shall be stuck in this metaphorical closet for life repeating reruns of Spaced in my head over and over and over….
Right so, my good (British) friend, Paula, has decided to visit home and I’m hitching a ride her (or rather, going with her for free accommodations) and we’ll also head to the Netherlands, where my family is from (for more free accommodations) and maybe some other country near by for fun. I am REALLY looking forward to this. I have never been outside the continent and get so greenly jealous whenever I see someone’s Facebook status update as, “some country other than Canada or the US in ## of days!!” Or worse, “I now live in this country other than Canada or the US, and this other country, and this other country….” and so on. I wish I knew their secret. Maybe someday I’ll get my chance as well, but for now I’ll have to live with a two week trip, which I am very very very excited about. Things have always managed to not work out in the past, mostly due to my laziness, but I’m working very hard on getting my passport which is now in my possession, and I have enough money (mostly) left over from OSAP (which I really don’t know how it happened) to pay for the flight, although it is not something I want to depend on. All I have to do is sit down with Paula and actually plan it!
And now that THAT is recorded, there’s no backing out!
On a last note, please check out As A Curiousity, Wear A Chameleon On Your Lapel, which is a blog from my wicked artist friend, Adam.
On a last last note, King is still awesome.
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