Maybe it's not for me after all...

As I was sitting in class today I realized something. Maybe this isn't for me.

I'm not a student. I work mostly part time at our local community television station, Rogers TV. I'm working master control, which is a job I don't love but I don't mind. I am taking classes part time though. It started a few months ago when I decided to just take a part time class out of special interest. I took Pop Culture, which was fun because I'm generally just interested in pop culture and I like learning about the history and somewhat of how our pop culture today has become the way it is. This semester I decided to take Special Events Coordination, which was also something that had interested me. I also used to sit beside a woman at work who was planning the Impression Awards ceremony (which is an award ceremony across all the Rogers stations) and it sounded stressful, but it also sounded sort of, well, fun. A good challenge. Anyway, today in class (and since we're suffering some effects of our first snowfall so I'm sure the weather didn't help the mood) I just realized how bored I got of this class. You would think that I would be interested in something going on. Well, I like some of my classmates ... and our teacher's pretty entertaining ... and umm ... yeah ...

I'm not sure it's for me. I had also been trying to decide whether to continue on in the part time program that these two classes I took are part of, which is Public Relations Practitioner. I really don't know if that's for me.

I wish I realized all this when I started volunteering for Friends of Abandoned Pets. FOAP is an Ottawa-based organization which finds home for abandoned animals. We're having a fundraiser next month and I decided to volunteer myself for helping plan it. It's just frustrating more than anything. And I really hate asking people for donations. We're having a Dinner and Auction so I said I would ask some people for donations but I really only have one. My best friend, Victoria, is the assistant manager at Mrs. Tiggywinkles so I asked her and she said yes. That's all I got. I'm trying to arrange a site check for the room we're renting but there are three other people who want to go and it's really hard trying to fit in four different schedules. It's hard too because the main organizer is only available evenings and weekends and the only times we can see the room is during the day because of events taking place in the evenings and weekends. Makes sense right? Well anyway, I know I shouldn't let just one experience deter me walking away all together especially since I have pretty much no experience but it certainly doesn't help. Well I'm committed to the Dinner and Auction now, and that's fine but I don't know how much more I'd be willing to do.

Anyway, on another note. I really don't eat enough vegetables. I did for a time drink V8 juice to get my nutrition. I'm considering starting that again.